5 months and i'm impatient

First post on my blog...thought it would be good to get into the habit now. I still don't know where i'm going to be next year. The ODI people will tell us in mid-june. I'm findng it quite unsettling not knowing where I will be. I can't start planning, visualing, getting excited.

I do still stop every so often and wonder why on earth am i doing this?! The more time I spend with friends and family, when I know I won't be around them next year, the more i realise how much i will miss people and how much i could just stay in london and completely enjoy life.

But then, God doesn't call us to a comfortable life and I don't like to shy away from the challenge. It could all go horribly wrong and i end up hating it - but at least I tried and learned. The creator of the universe knows more than I do, so i'll just trust him.